3 weeks is not long enough

I don't wanna be here.
I wanna go home, I know I'm at my house, but I wanna go back home. It's so boring here. I spend all my time waiting, and it seems like nothing ever actually happens. I spent all morning waiting for him to wake up. I spent all afternoon trying to write this essay and I haven't written a word. I haven't even decided which chapter to write it on. The only chapter that makes sense I can't even begin to relate to writing. At least, not my writing. I wanna go back to explaining Bible stories to 10 year olds. I wanna go back to yelling and dancing and playing and innocence and laughing. I wanna go back to beauty and wonder and power. I wanna go back to independence and authority and knowledge and belonging.

noooo...
The book I have to read (and write an essay on) for AP LANG isn't on sparknotes! I'm screwed, I don't get it, the author just seems to write down anything that pops into her head and it doesn't have any definite anything going on.

When I yell, I'm crying inside. Don't yell back, hold me, apologize (I notice when u don't, even if u don't realize it), tell me that its ok, that you're there.

Last Blog

This is my last required bog! Yay!
I will still do maybe 5 more for (hopefully) extra credit and I'll probably keep using this blog but this is the last one that I HAVE to do.

achoo.

I hate being sick. Staying home isn't so bad, and I need the extra time to study, except I can't concentrate! My mind keeps wandering and I haven't gotten anything done.

Although I do feel better, so I suppose staying home today was smart. Anyway, I just need one more blog after this.

*drooool*

There is a family who used to go to my church, but they moved to Switzerland and they came back to visit a couple weeks ago. Frankly, I don't really care because they're kids were too young for me to know. But they and my parents are friends so we got these amazing mini toblerone!!! (toblerones? tobleroni?) Anyway, they are very tasty and I just ate one. As well as an ice cream sandwich.

Wow I sound like such a fat-ass.

I'm sleepy.

Well, I got like 6 blogs done. That's not quite half... I should get at least 8 done before I go to bed. I really should go to bed soon because I've been up late (for me) the past two nights. But I know I'll just lie in bed and worry about my grades and the project and my math final and I might as well be productive, since I'll be awake anyway. I sort of wish my brain had an off button. Or I had a sleep switch.

Next year.

Next year I will be taking AP Calc, APUSH, some elective, Physics, French 5-6, and AP Lang.
I'm frightened. I'm looking forward to APUSH. I'm fairly apathetic about my elective (I don't remember what I put as my choices), Physics, and French. I'm terrified for AP Calc and Lang. I feel like AP Lang will be good for me, since I am a horrible writer, but I wish I could get the results without the work. I know I'll hate that class, because I hate writing.

Summer.

My summer is not really a summer. You think of summer and you think of relaxation, doing things on your own time, sleeping in, the beach, all of that.

My summer will involve:
-one week of true relaxation (I'll be at the beach for a week)
-five weeks of busy busy busy but fun
-three weeks of "OMG I HAVE TO FINISH THESE SUMMER ASSIGNMENTS!!!!!!!"

I'm looking forward to lots of individual parts of the summer, but not so much summer as a whole.

To whomever it concerns:

I love you!

Driving driving crash!

Today my dad took me driving. I drove around the light rail parking lot.
-I tried to stay on the right side of the road
-I didn't hit anything
-I didn't coast too much
-I didn't give my dad (much) whiplash
-I got the car all in one parking place (just a little crooked)

Overall, I am quite proud of myself.

Stress

I can't believe we only have two weeks left of school, and I still have 2 B's and a C. I can't believe I only have one day until I present. I can't believe I only have a week and one day until my math and history finals. I need more time!!!!

100 blogs?

I think Mr. Thompson said we need to have 100 blogs total for the whole year. My blog says I have 90, but I probably went over a little bit last year, so I think I'll try to do 15 blogs (eek!) These will be very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very short.

This is amazing

...nothing needs to be said.

Last one.

I just went through each week and added everthing together and it turns out I only need one more blog to have 27 out 27 for all the weeks since Thompson checked last. Plus maybe extra credit for over Spring Bre3ak? I don't remember. Oh well. Here's the last blog, yay.

On a random note, it took me three tries to spell "through". I'm typing too fast.

uh-oh

My parent's decided I have to get all A's. I'm a little worried though.. I have only 2 A's. And the classes I have B's, except for French, which I'm not worried about because it's an 89%, are the ones where the teachers don't upload grades very often. I had a big project in my math class recently, but it isn't up yet, so I don't know whether it will help my grade. I think I did pretty well, so I think it will help, but I don't KNOW that yet. In my history, it's sub after sub after sub and it's all bookwork, so they have no time to grade any of it. After all that work is graded, my grade could be anything from a D to an A+. That really worrys me because if it ends up bad, I won't have enough time to make up work I didn't do. In chemistry, Miller just has a weird grading system. I need to go through all of the assignments and ask her if I can make up what I missed. I'm sure she will let me, and if not these labs and final ought to bring up my grade. In English, I really hope blogs and the final project will save me from my current (gasp) C.

Animusic

While I've been blogging, I've been listening/watchign this one thing called animusic. It's pretty cool, in my opinion. It's sort of like computer animated musci videos, but that isn't quite right. I can't really describe it, so I'll see if I can find one of the videos on youtube.

Here, this one is one of my favorites:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9ySRK3poq8

This is my other favorite:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Srf3RcgCTRU

Just in case you care.

Mommy's day

Yesterday, I didn't do anything particularly special for Mother's Day. I went to church like usual, although I was sitting with all the other high schoolers, so we enjoyed ourselves and twisted the sermon and it wasn't too boring. Anyway, the pastor kept talking about how it wasn't just about mothers, but we should celebrate all the Christian women in our lives. As a result of this, I got a flower, which I then gave to my mom as a present. So that was convenient. After church, I got dragged to Starbucks with my parents and 3 other couples. They all had kids, but two of them weren't there, and the rest were too young to have fun with, but too old to play with like I would a 3 or 4 year old. And then we went home and made dinner. Dinner was amazing. We had salad and corn and ribs. But the ribs we make are sooo good. The sauce is a recipe I found in like 5th grade, so we call them my ribs, but I just make the sauce. What we do is we cook the ribs in the oven for like 4 hours in garlic and I think a marinade. That makes it super tender. And then my dad barbecues the ribs and puts my sauce on them and they're soo good. The meat practically falls off the bone. >.< I'm making myself hungry, I'm going to stop talking about this now.

Aaahh giggle giggle giggle breathe giggle giggle

On Saturday, I got to go to Great America with my youth group plus Burt. It was fun, and he was nice and didn't go on the rides I think are scary and bought me funnel cake and yeah. Anyways, I got to be at Great America allllll day. And then at like 6, we had to go to this Christian concert thing that was there, which was a little bit boring, but I was hyper enough to entertain myself and then it was Switchfoot, which was cool. And when Switchfoot was on, we walked down closer to the front and I really liked it, because I liked how I could feel the music like in my heart. And then when we drove home, Burt and my friend Eliysha and I were all sitting in the backseat of the car and I slept on Eliysha and Burt was asleep on me and I was very comfy because I had a pillow and a warm blanket :3

Bascially, Saturday was a good day.

Monetize?

I just noticed there's a random tab on my screen that says "monetize". You know, it goes "Posting, Settings, Layout" and then that one randomly. I wonder what it is...


I just clicked on it. Evidently, you can earn money by having ads on your blog. Goggle decides which to put on and then you get paid if visitors click on them. What I want to know is, if I put them on my blog and then just clikc it a lot myself, will I still get the money? Enh, I don't really want ads on my blog. That'd just be kind of obnoxious, plus I don't get very many visitors to my blog. Oh well.