3 weeks is not long enough

I don't wanna be here.
I wanna go home, I know I'm at my house, but I wanna go back home. It's so boring here. I spend all my time waiting, and it seems like nothing ever actually happens. I spent all morning waiting for him to wake up. I spent all afternoon trying to write this essay and I haven't written a word. I haven't even decided which chapter to write it on. The only chapter that makes sense I can't even begin to relate to writing. At least, not my writing. I wanna go back to explaining Bible stories to 10 year olds. I wanna go back to yelling and dancing and playing and innocence and laughing. I wanna go back to beauty and wonder and power. I wanna go back to independence and authority and knowledge and belonging.

noooo...
The book I have to read (and write an essay on) for AP LANG isn't on sparknotes! I'm screwed, I don't get it, the author just seems to write down anything that pops into her head and it doesn't have any definite anything going on.

When I yell, I'm crying inside. Don't yell back, hold me, apologize (I notice when u don't, even if u don't realize it), tell me that its ok, that you're there.

Last Blog

This is my last required bog! Yay!
I will still do maybe 5 more for (hopefully) extra credit and I'll probably keep using this blog but this is the last one that I HAVE to do.

achoo.

I hate being sick. Staying home isn't so bad, and I need the extra time to study, except I can't concentrate! My mind keeps wandering and I haven't gotten anything done.

Although I do feel better, so I suppose staying home today was smart. Anyway, I just need one more blog after this.

*drooool*

There is a family who used to go to my church, but they moved to Switzerland and they came back to visit a couple weeks ago. Frankly, I don't really care because they're kids were too young for me to know. But they and my parents are friends so we got these amazing mini toblerone!!! (toblerones? tobleroni?) Anyway, they are very tasty and I just ate one. As well as an ice cream sandwich.

Wow I sound like such a fat-ass.

I'm sleepy.

Well, I got like 6 blogs done. That's not quite half... I should get at least 8 done before I go to bed. I really should go to bed soon because I've been up late (for me) the past two nights. But I know I'll just lie in bed and worry about my grades and the project and my math final and I might as well be productive, since I'll be awake anyway. I sort of wish my brain had an off button. Or I had a sleep switch.