Today, chemistry was just disappointing. I'm more calmed down now, but still.
What happened was an eerie repeat of what happened with Danielle. Minus the... victory, the sense of unity of all of us. Evan went up and asked about his notebook, because he didn't get points on the assignment that he did. The teacher went off on him, yelling about how he didn't show his work (it was multiple choice.), how he just interrupted her and she had all these other students asking for help (He waited like 10 minutes at her desk, until she was done with the other students there), and just went on and on. She was already mad about our class talking while she was talking, and stuff like that, but she just took it all out on Evan. So he objected. He wasn't really arguing until she started yelling. And the problem with our teacher is that she does not know how to admit that she's wrong, and she gets up on this superiority complex. She yells and loses her temper almost immediately and then gets irrational. She yells about stuff that is only vaguely related, and contradicts herself. Then, she sent Evan to the office, and I got really mad. However, I'm not so much mad at her right now, as I am at the rest of the class, one person in particular.
After Evan left, I raised my hand, and started to defend him, but I can feel that the class doesn't care. The general emotion in the room isn't one or tension, of anger like when Danielle got sent out. Oh no, of course not. Because Evan isn't popular, so he doesn't get the same loyalty, evidently. The class's general feeling was one of like mild interest and annoyance from a few people. Especially one, also a popular person, who I hear whisper "Just stop arguing with her." I got so mad at that. Not only when I defend my friend, do I get no support, but others in the class get ANNOYED with me??!!! But when Danielle was sent out, this person argued. Except Evan isn't super-popular, because he actually has opinions, and voices them. So he gets no support.
Now maybe whoever is reading this is about to respond with something along the lines of "I would have stood up for him, I cared, I would have backed you up." But, you "would have" isn't the same as you DID. And then, you just let this popular person CONTROL you. You heard that as a general feeling, the class didn't care about Evan (which is just wrong. They should care every bit as much as they did with Danielle.) and were afraid to go against the class. No one was afraid of Ms. Miller, we've beaten her before. But we are afraid of what the others think if we stand up for a fellow classmate.
I thought we were better than that. I thought we would stand up for each other. I thought you guys cared. But it seems I'm just an over-optimist. You don't care, not unless it's someone popular. You don't care, unless the popular kids do too.
What if it had been me? Would anyone (aside from my friends, naturally) have cared? You say you would have, but would have "cared" in silence? Or would you stand up for me? Would you at least back up someone who did?
It doesn't look like it. I don't have that confidence in us anymore. I thought we could be more united, at least when someone was wronged. It seems, I am the one who's wrong.
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Beautiful.
You know, I really don't understand why she has to get mad so quickly. Can't she just take the time to explain things? What's the big deal? We were all working quietly on the warm up and she kept screaming at us.
But Marissa, "[She isn't] used to teaching a class this large."
As much as I love Evan, I can see how teaching a bunch of pompous, arrogant teenagers for twenty years can start to scratch your patience. However, that is no excuse for her to hang the guilty with the innocent.
I guess, since I wasn't there, I'm incapable of forming an opinion..
I think you are right in a sence. It makes me really sad that you think this about me though. I couldn't explain to you why that sort of thing happened. My blood boiled as she yelled at him but I couldn't get myself caught in the principle's office again. I have already brought myself through too much trouble this year. I really don't think it was because of popularity, I think it was due to fairness. I think people tended to be on neither side because there shouldn't have been another wasted day on arguing like there was for my situation, it wouldn't help anything but brought back past stress and problems for the next days to come. I spoke with the girl that you talked about and her opinion on the situation was that the teacher did handle it wrongly, but it was only fair he didn't get the points because however many assignments that were on that one page didn't equal up to the amount of work and time she put into the assignment when working on it.. Just a thought??
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